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I Have A Choice

Get this.

I’m wearing this eyeshadow, I’m wearing this full face of makeup, or at least what *I* consider a full face of makeup— for Myself.

I’m not wearing it because social media told me to.

I have a choice.

I have an option of whether or not I want to wear makeup.

Everyone seems to try to pinpoint what is “right” and what is “wrong” all the time, or they try to keep on everyone’s side to seem like they aren’t bias.

Now let me tell you, I care, I do. I care a lot about everyone I meet, what people think of me (semi-sometimes) because everyone feels this way, it’s just natural to care.

Everyone questions “am I good enough, is this winged liner even, do I even feel like wearing foundation today… no, but I’m going to wear it anyways because there’s this cute guy in my class and in order for me to work up the courage to even look at him I have to look inside my soul, find this confidence that’s buried somewhere, and LET IT FREE by wearing whatever make-up makes me feel damn GOOD on this day.”

Yes, that sentence was completely bombastic and slightly unnecessary.

But the key thing to remember out of what I just said is confidence.

Everyone has it, it’s fueled by different things. Me for instance, I do better at life in general when I feel like myself, when I feel good, whether that’s with make-up or without.

There used to be a time where I wore make-up because I felt like I had to. I felt naked without it, or I felt just completely not myself.

And sometimes I still do feel that way, but I’ve noticed the caring on that level has SUNK, let me tell you.

I went out in public, with no makeup, hadn’t washed my hair, I looked like I was going through a crisis slightly, because I kinda sort of was, and I took a smoothie to this guy that sort of liked me but I wanted to be clear we were just friends and I thought he was sweet.

SoooooOoOoooOOOOOO I went back in the house and immediately was asked “what, you went out like that?” and I said “yes, who cares? If he likes me anyways then he needs to see the real me, and accept me, right?”

*laughs at self *

…………………………………

ohhh my goddd

And then the other person just looked at me and smiled probably internally screaming “what happened to you?!?!?!”

But seriously, I’m sitting here telling you that you don’t have to do what everyone else is doing to feel good about yourself.

You don’t have to wear a full face of makeup; you don’t even have to wear any make-up.

And yes I know there are girls that exist who do both proudly and props to you, I am that person too—sometimes.

But the truth is, I just love makeup. And, I also just love rubbing my eyes.

Everyone stresses about being liked but it’s all about doing whatever you like— that will help you achieve this happiness and validation you’re searching for.

And if you’re really looking for likes, you need to be yourself. An original, not a copy of a neighbor or celebrity; you’ll be surprised how many positive responses you get when you yourself feel good about what you’re doing, wearing, and putting out into the world.

*P.S. I sort of want to film a video on this, do you have any thoughts on it? Am I missing anything or do you sort of relate to me at all? I’d love to hear. 🙂

Love,

Nat

Dior Addict Lipglow 

I love this!

I have the shade pink 001 in the dior addict lipglow, which is like a lip balm and lipstick in one.

It is meant to change to a flattering pink shade on everyone who uses it.

It smells minty to me although doesn’t give a tingling feeling as some lip products do.

I’ve used it quite a lot, as you can see it’s pretty loved. 🙂

Have you tried any other shades or lip products I should know about?


Love,

Nat 💖

Happy Accidents

Everything happens for a reason.

While I may not understand the reasoning behind some peoples choices or actions, I know what I am capable of and who I am as a person.

I am not lazy, I am not uptight to the point where if I get something wrong that I hide away, because making a mistake or having an assumption be made of me is simply another step into the direction of where I am meant to go.

The only way to battle someones accusations or negativity towards you is to progress in your own life.

Don’t look back, try to find answers in the moment– but if there is the case where you cannot find answers, know that this is sometimes unavoidable.

Not everyone will have an answer for you, nor will you be able to comprehend why one shuts you out of finding an answer.

But, remember, everything happens for a reason.

Normally when something negative, or a string of negative events occur, it is building up to other opportunities. It is up to you to accept the changes, and welcome the new moments.

The new experiences, whether it be love, a job, a person, or something simple like trying a new candy bar, are all good experiences.

Because they are changes, and people need changes in order to grow.

I know that there are moments where you want to do nothing and lay in your bed because the world has gotten you a little too down– but you aren’t meant to stay there forever.

You are meant to get back up, discover your stability, and keep treading forward because you aren’t meant to have it figured out nor are you meant to figure things out.

Sometimes things happen out of nowhere, and thats okay.

Sometimes there are good mistakes and happy accidents, believe it or not.

How else would the red and blue Nintendo Switch have come about for instance.

Love,

Nat

Don’t Be So Quick to Judge

I don’t believe all company’s use certain social issues and ideas to make a profit. There are some corporations that do, but in regards to the Budweiser commercial during the Super Bowl– I would not fit them in the category of money-grubbing.

If you have not seen the commercial that aired during the 2017 Super Bowl, it is the back story of the company’s start– specifically how Adolphus Busch (the founder of the beer) came to the U.S., with specific references to his journey.

Which was not an easy one.

In the end Busch met Eberhard Anheuser (who soon after became father-in-law due to his daughter Elizabeth Lilly marrying Busch), thus creating Budweiser.

He had a dream, and came to the U.S. (which is based on immigrants and every person coming together to create what would then be called a melting pot) to pursue it.

To claim the company, who released the commercial (due to certain concerns and tension involving the U.S. and other neighboring / not so close areas) as one who only looked to put out such a commercial due to making a profit is entirely demeaning to the actual man who this commercial is surrounding.

It truly bothers me when people say some corporations only promote things such as equality or hopefully bettering a situation ONLY to make a profit.

Not all companies are money-grubbing manipulations.

 

Don’t Fall Too Soon

On the fence of intimidated and comfortable when around him, that is what I felt.

He is the type that says a million things without saying a word, encouraging without drowning your ears with the same old line.

Someone who provides all the happiness in the world, and little confusion.

It’s strange meeting someone like him, someone that understands and listens while you blabber on about your hometown. Then by some twist of fate he happens to know exactly what you’re talking about, because he resides there too.

Yet somehow you’ve never met, but feel as if you’ve known this person you’re whole life.

It’s strange how this works, and even stranger when you see he provides the same for multiple other girls, yet for whatever astounding reason, it still seems independent with you.

He’s not a bad guy, just a good guy with bad intention.

It’s fun to know a good guy, it’s nice to know they exist. But don’t fall too soon for them, for when the time comes it’ll be gone quick.

 

 

2017 hopes

“How could I be so foolish…”

Something I’ve asked myself quite a few times this year.

In lack of sleep, in 2nd or 7th chances, in letting the the best of me cower behind a facade because I’m too afraid people won’t accept me, for me.

Yes, it’s 1 am as I’m typing this, yes I’m going to hit the pillow afterwards (a form of expression), damn sleep deprivation.

But, I am 100 percent finding myself this year.

I am without a doubt doing that already and have been for the past few months, I have to say that in doing so I’ve realized some aren’t as accepting while others are elated.

I don’t know what to say besides the fact that 2017 is, and has already proven to be my year.

I hope you have a great one too. 🙂

Beauty and The Beast

Beauty and The Beast is one of my favorite Disney films of all time.

Belle is no ordinary princess, she was not born into royalty nor whisked away by a handsome prince. She learned to love the prince for who he was, not through is appearance or what he could give her.

Before the beast stumbled into her life (I am going off the animation version, not the original tale of Beauty and The Beast) where she was considered “weird” yet beautiful by people in her town due to the fact that she read books. Her family also didn’t possess a lot of money, so spoiled is in no way a word to describe Belle.

As always, Belle does her thing and goes about her days, passing the time with a book or talking to her father about his inventions whilst Gaston continues to bug her and ask for her hand in marriage, that conceited son of a b–

 

Now, with the trailers coming out of the new “Beauty and the beast” live action film set to take place in theaters come March 17th (St. Patrick’s day fellow Irish– keep in mind, I only have partial Irish in my blood) it is easy to investigate the differences through the animated film and the soon to be aired, live action movie.

 

I’m not gonna lie, I can already tell lumiere is going to bother me during the entire film because he has two separate legs instead of a candlestick base. :’)

I’m still giving the movie a chance regardless of all of these changes (Of course, they’re attempting to make the movie into real life and it is difficult, hence the need for digital animation and autotune) but so many of these things really didn’t need to be altered??

I mean, chip as another example. I imagined him to be cute, not scare me with his eyes…

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I’m trying my best to keep an open mind, and I am still incredibly excited for it, but come on. That auto tune is insane.

The auto tune is however noticed prominently more on certain areas of the song rather than the entire thing, which isn’t detrimental.

The reason I love the musical movies (rent, les miz, but les miz especially because a lot of their scenes tended to be live rather than recorded and added to the film making it more raw and emotional) is due to the reality of the situation it delivers rather than pre-recorded or seen on a stage where a lot of the emotions aren’t picked up in facial expressions because they are so far away. Including films that are simply films until the addition of music (because music is something that everyone can understand and feel regardless of language or any sort of barrier between people).

Don’t even get me started about the dress, please. But, seeing the entire blue dress– I felt better about it than originally when there was only the image of the collar and I was just not having it haha.

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I imagined it to look like this fan-made (sorry, not sure who created it) image:

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As for the winter dress, I wish the puffy hood was still a thing, although the new dress is stunning as well.

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Made by toughtink on Instagram. I absolutely love her dress.

 

I don’t mind the beasts’ horns much, although wouldn’t it have been easier to keep them short like in the animation? Just throwing that out there.

I’m so excited for the movie, I’m sure everyone else is as well, it’s just a few changes we need to get used to even if we would go about them a different way. Although I’m not so sure I could forgive what they did to Chip and Lumiere, time will tell though.

If you envisioned any aspect of the movie to be different, please let me know what and how you would alter it. Also, If your super thrilled for the movie to FINALLY be released, please mention that too. 😛

Nat ❤

❤ Note: All photos and videos are not my own, these belong to the creators and uploaders. ❤

An original song 

💖 Hi, I have next to 50 or so songs I’ve written in the last few weeks, and this is one that is very much in need of tuning, or an instrument, etc. but constructive criticism is appreciated. I mainly am putting this out into the world to get this off my chest, thanks for reading if you do.💖
 Is this a jokeEverything that I wrote 

The words we left unsaid 

Dancing around in my head 
Maybe you weren’t a cheat 

Maybe you weren’t a creep 

Or maybe I’m denying the truth 

Because I still have feelings for you 
And OH 

THIS IS ALL TERRIBLY WRONG 

and OH 

This is not what was meant to be our song 
We never did figure that out…
And OH 

THIS IS ALL TERRIBLY WRONG 

and OH 

This is not what was meant to be our song 
But I’m going to sing it 

I’m still unsure of what to say 

After 6 months you’d gone away 

After finding you with her 

After knowing the worst wasn’t the worst 
And OH 

THIS IS ALL TERRIBLY WRONG 

and OH 

This is not what was meant to be our song 
But I guess this is how we have to end 

How dare you ask we be friends after all the time you left, after how you left, after why you left, after the nights I spent alone wondering why you hadn’t come home… 
And to find out the truth was best of all 

To find out it was her, made me feel small 

But to know that I was finally free

Gave me back a sense of reality 
And OH 

THIS WAS ALL TERRIBLY WRONG 

and OH 

That is not what was meant to be my song 

We call this reality 

Everything in books and movies is better. The reason it’s better is because we know their future or the beginning plot of the story, however in our lives we have no damn clue of where we’re going or what’s going to happen. 

It’s comforting to watch an anime or a movie, knowing even if that scene was literally taken and drawn exactly from real life, it still managed to look better in an anime or fiction realm. 

Why? Because it’s comforting to relate to other people’s lives in a story and hope that it ends up being in ours. 

It comforting to know we can live many different lives from the perspective of one life we call our reality. 

And most likely than not, the stories we grow attached to are the ones with happy endings. 

Examples (no photos are my own, they all were found on Google): 

Ourselves

Decisions have the potential to ruin a person.

A decision on staying with someone after they’ve done you wrong.

A decision on moving across the country for something you love, instead of something practical.

A decision on throwing in the towel after you’ve had what feels like 1,000 chances on fixing a mistake that’s been eating you up inside, yet the other person may have never felt hindered by it to begin with.

It’s not easy to walk around feeling as though your holding up a sign that says ‘pity me’ while going through issues every 20-something, 40-something, or 60-something year old faces.

Life wouldn’t be fun if it was perfect– an age old fact.

Life would become boring and dull without any hardships or struggles along the way, easier however; maybe.

But easy isn’t always right.

In fact, easy is what I try to avoid.

But sometimes we need the easy way when we are too jumbled up to decipher the best plan for ourselves.

I don’t know what I’m doing right now, but I know that this will only lead to whatever giant step I’m headed towards down the line.

Thanks for listening to this randomness,

Nat