“No one can say what we get to be.”
I have a gut feeling this movie is going to break records.
I have a gut feeling this movie is going to inspire a lot of little girls, a lot of women, and people in general.
This doesn’t strike me as a movie that will only show the good scenes in the trailer just to “get hype.”
It’s apparent to me that this movie deserves the hype due to the fact that it doesn’t’ appear at all to be a let down both in the trailers, and considering the director is also a woman (who may be able to bring a more relatable side of the character to the movie-goers as well).
Today at work, at least 3 times alone (the most I can ever remember in one sole day) I was asked if a man, a boy, anyone besides a female could carry cases of water for a customer. Seriously, this really did happen. Even after I did truck and moved about 200 cases of product, quite a lot of it being heavy.
What I did was at least took it to the counter for the customer. He looked at me in shock, this elderly man, and questioned “that’s not heavy to you?” with eyes practically bulging out of his head I politely said “no, not at all” and smiled.
And no, I’m definitely not the strongest woman anyone will come across, I don’t lift or work out much besides when at work, however I AM in fact able to do it so why the hell should I not?
Afterwards, a man came in to get a propane tank, and before I could grab it off the shelf, he said “no, no, wait I got it” even though I’ve done this at least 50 times… and he did do just that.
I want to mention that I have zero problem if someone (a man specifically in this case) wants to help me, however, if I’m not struggling in the slightest bit, if I don’t mind in the slightest bit, and hell, even if I do mind sometimes; I don’t feel there should be a place where a man says to me “no, you shouldn’t lift that, its too heavy for a woman.”
It is insulting to me, to watch someone else do a job I could easily do, only because they are a male.
I hope the movie “Wonder Woman” –and the fact that it was directed by a woman as well– can inspire as many people as its already inspired me to remind myself I’m a badass woman, when others fail to realize.
I have a really good feeling about this movie, what are you thinking about it? Do you think it’s too hyped up, or are you excited to see what it has in store?
Lemme know what you think 🙂
*Note: I found the featured image on Deviant Art, it’s done by TristanHartup*
I am at a loss for words as I sit in the lobby of a building typing this, something that is out of my comfort zone a bit, because I’m not in the comfort of my room let alone in my hometown.
I used to think the dream was to be away from my hometown, to be off on adventures no matter whether it was a hike through some woods, a walk around a city, or on a plane (has happened few times for me) going somewhere entirely different.
I crave adventure.
I want new experiences.
And I want good memories to overshadow my awkward self that I love– but to a degree.
I used to believe I would be stuck forever in my room a shy, self-conscious (during my early teenage years) yet confident person with a desperate need to explore new opportunities and environments. Falling victim to having aspirations and hope, yet eventually with time, no matter how hard I worked or believed, fearing failure.
There is no failing.
Oprah Winfrey didn’t fail as she began her life as a talk show host, producer, actress etc. after being fired at 23 from her first reporting job.
Tina Fey didn’t fail, now a comedian and actress worked at the YMCA age 23.
Stephen King, an iconic author didn’t fail as he lived in a trailer and worked as a janitor age 24.
J.K. Rowling, (another iconic author) of the Harry Potter Series was practically homeless at the age of 28.
Vera Wang, a fashion designer known around the world didn’t design her first dress until age 40.
The late Alan Rickman, was not a widely known actor until age 42 when he landed his first role after deciding to stop pursuing graphic design.
And so on and so on…
So if someone tells me I need to give up and that I’ll never amount to anything– even if that person is me at times– I remind myself of these amazing people who got their start in the middle, and many with struggles.
Everything takes time, the issue is that my time is up on making a decision in regards to college decisions.
Choosing a major, choosing an area of focus, deciding where I’ll live next year and who the hell with, let alone whether or not I want to pursue my dream of traveling despite the realization that I actually like comfort… is mind boggling.
Yes, in a sense that comfort has been ripped away over the last few days, but whose to say it hasn’t been slowly building up over the course of a year.
Also known as, the mid-college crisis.
I know it will get better, but it is incredibly frustrating to remember this as I’m being stretched thin by my own unstable comprehension.
I know I can get through these decisions everyone says not to worry about, but the time is now and plain as day that I can either try for my dream and fail a few times in the process, or I can give up all together and settle.
I’m not one for settling, I’m one for finding an alternate way around a situation so that I can make the most out of what I’ve been given to work with.
Life can be crazy, challenging, and exhausting but to write our own story we all have to go along with the ride and hope we end up somewhere amazing.
I get a call asking me where I am, why I haven’t shown up for work.
I am home.
I am happy.
I am in my car, with my mom, going to pick up my sister from work, and no stress whatsoever.
I’ve just watched “A dog’s purpose.”
Not the best emotional state, but definitely not putting up with these so called “responsibilities” I was never notified about to begin with.
Especially considering I was under the impression I was terminated from my job.
The job that I work 100 percent at every single day, the job that I get truck done (shipments sent to the store weekly) 70% faster than everyone else, the job where I give everyone smiles and respect unless a bad vibe is inevitably present. The job where I take a photo of the schedule every single time I am there, yet due to not being present for a while was unable to do so and was told she would be called if needed and that it was “nothing personal,” although we both know it was.
Even then, I still smile sometimes in hopes of the small chance they’ll smile back.
Offended doesn’t even begin to explain my feelings as I speak to my coworkers, people who used to love me, people I used to talk to and laugh with, who now look at me with a hint of disdain.
Or at least, that’s how it feels.
Not even a goodbye back as I head out the door.
I question it all, as I continue the job I’m supposed to do.
One day a week due to school swarming me, I was unable to do what I could the year before and during the summer which was 3 or 4 days during the year, and almost every day during the summer.
The first day feeling of spring in the air, with 60 degree weather and not a cloud in the sky– has turned to rain in my mind.
Due to something so unbelievably stupid.
I’ve seen many people come and go through my almost two years at this establishment, but it didn’t occur to me that maybe some were pushed out.
Or voluntarily left, because it became much more difficult under the thumb of new store management.
It got complicated– we all have lives, but don’t we all have sympathy as well?
I am not lazy. I have bad days.
I am not a slacker, I try to balance everything at once.
I am not a slow learner, I learn quickly but due to lack of sleep not as comprehensive at times–few times for that matter.
I am not a person who takes malarkey that’s thrown my way. If I know you are lying–
I will call you out.
Boss or not.
If you know me, you know that I care.
You know that I have a shy nature with glimpses of an outgoing presence.
This gives the impression of being a snob or conceited at times, but it is far from reality.
There are times when I’m way too sorry, when I’m way too lenient, when I’m way too nice– but do not mistake that for weakness.
You never want to mistake kindness for weakness.
But when something does ding ones heart a little too bad, water will flow from my eyes like a waterfall, especially when deceived regardless of whether or not I knew I was being treated like putty.
I am stronger than this.
I am worth more than this.
I can do better than this.
Someone came in today who used to work with me– she is doing much better, and let me tell you she was not in her best form before starting this new job. She is happier, she is smiling, she looks damn good, she ain’t lost it (had to reference Beyoncé’s song).
I don’t intend to lose it either.
I haven’t yet, why the hell would I now?
I want to see the world and I will not get the thought of a chance, if I continue with where I am now.
I deserve better, just as my coworkers deserve better– they are all amazing people.
From the one who looks like she’s in college yet in reality has been married forever with a teenage son, isn’t a huge fan of tampa, and has gave me the mystery machine hot wheels car before someone else grabbed it, you are one that I look up to, and slightly idolize.
From the one who also looks like she’s in college, and drinks her coffee like a Gilmore to have time to spend with her 3 year old daughter and play video games, one that I look up to.
From the one who I didn’t meet until last year, he gave me a free mascara that ended up being top-notch by the way, if he ever reads this. He is the life of the party, and one that I look up to.
From the one who is never not sarcastic, and knocks people over for fun (not in a bad way)–literally. The one that helped me out when he could, which was really nice, maybe I was too dependent at times. One that I look up to.
From the one who I only ever say “hello” to when I walk through the door but works in a different section of the store and is always complimented by the elderly who can’t remember his name, I look up to you.
From the one who was terminated or quit, that came back then left again, I hope you and your fiancé (or now husband) are doing well, I look up to you, even if you’re only a few years older.
From the one who never failed to put a smile on my face that gave me a near heart attack when mentioning a stomach issue– I’m glad you’re feeling better. I look up to you.
From the one who is chatty, and makes everyone chatty too even if they’ve had a blue day, you are gorgeous, funny, and remind me of a friend.
From the one who liked early mornings would talk politics and english with me– you are so flawless and sometimes it seems like you don’t even know it. Never ever let someone make you feel inferior because you are one of the smartest people I have ever met in my life.
From the one who wore flowers in her hair, you are so kind and cheery, you are one that I look up to.
From the one I din’t see too often but reminded me of Ryan Gosling, you’re pretty cool, just keep being you, I look up to you.
From the new guy who always seems a bit bland, I’m sure you are super funny, and your also a hard worker, I look up to you.
From the one I met one day that I never got to know because you work in a different section, you are amazing and it’s a shame we never knew each other better because I think we’d have been good friends, I look up to you.
From the one who walked home with me a few times (even though you have a skateboard which is freaking amazing) that I told about Safe Trek, you seem really awesome, I look up to you.
From the guy who’s my age that got married, I have no clue what happened to you but I hope you are well and still swimming no matter the outcome of one event, you are one that I look up to.
From the one who was gone unexpectedly as I returned for the school year, I hope you love your new job and still carry all the wisdom you gave me. Btw, the blonde wig looked nice on you, you are one that I look up to.
From the one who disappeared, but seemed to have a bit of trouble in the beginning- I am SO glad you are doing better. You deserve it– your sister isn’t the only one who is climbing mountains, you are one that I look up to. ❤
From previous management that was there when I started, I hope you are safe, happy, not weighed down by your dad who seems to be too much at times (at least from what I’ve witnessed), and enjoying sun somewhere, even if it isn’t Florida. It was always smiles from every single worker when you were there. You are a natural leader, I look up to you.
To the new girls who started this fall, you’re all hard workers and seem to be really sweet.
However, the new store management and jerks who don’t believe in my power to bounce back, can kiss it.
The two books:
1. “Me before you” by Jojo Moyes
~this was bought because I read the back of the book, and was sucked into it being the hopeless-romantic that I am. Also, it turns out this was made into a movie that’s popping into theaters on June 3, 2016. Now I’m even more excited.
2. “Dream house” by Marzia Bisognin
~this was bought because I read the back of the book, and it sounds a bit like a mystery or scary book. I used to read Nancy Drew books like a fiend in elementary school, however, not so much scary reads (especially scary movies) so this is my way of stepping outside of my box. Also, it was written by one of my favorite YouTubers (CutiePieMarzia). ^_^
❤️ PSA: if you ever go to target with me, I guarantee we (or I, I should say) may spend a good 10-20 minutes in the book section. Just a warning 🙂
Also, I tend to add to my book collection although there’s still a few books lined up for me to read haha. Does anyone else do this?