High End VS. Drugstore

Because I just feel like it I’ll make a mini list of makeup, both drugstore and high end that I love.

*Note: These are not dupes, they are alternatives that I personally found work well*

High End

  1. Fresh Lotus Youth Preserve Face Cream $43
  2. Hourglass Mineral Veil face primer SPF 15 $19 / $54 / $75
  3. Benefit Erase Paste $26
  4. Nars Sheer Glow (Have not tried this yet but hear it’s amazing) $47
  5. Bare Minerals Original Foundation ( I like to use this as a powder or foundation) $28.50
  6. Too Faced Shadow Insurance Eyeshadow Primer $20
  7. Too faced Natural eyes Eyeshadow Palette (One of the least expensive yet amazing quality at Sephora) $36
  8. Urban Decay Eyeliner $20
  9. Too Faced Better Than Sex Mascara (yep, that’s really what it’s called, Benefit They’re Real Mascara, Tarte Light’s Camera Lashes Mascara $23 / $24 / $21
  10. Tarte Blush, Benefit Coralita Blush $28 / $29
  11. Anastasia Beverly Hills Contour Kit $40
  12. Too Faced Chocolate Soleil Bronzer $30
  13. Dior LipGlow Pink $30
  14. Becca Highlighter $38
  15. GlamGlow Glowsetter makeup setting spray $32

Drug Store

1. Olay Complete Daily Defense All Day moisturizer SPF 30 $13

2. Rimmel London Fix and Perfect Primer $7.99

3. Maybelline Instant Age Rewind Concealer $8.99

4. L’Oreal True Match Lumi Foundation $12.99

5. Essence Matte Powder $4.99

6. NYX High Definition eyeshadow base $6.99

7. Wet N’ Wild walking on Eggshells trio $2.99

8. Rimmel London Waterproof Retractable eyeliner $5.99

9. L’Oreal Miss Manga, L’Oreal Carbon Black, L’Oreal Telescopic / Maybelline Great Lash $7.99 / $7.99 / $9.99 / $5.99

10. Revlon RavishingRose (I don’t know why but at first I thought it was called ‘Racy Rose’) blush $10.99

11. Wet N’ Wild Ticket to Brazil Bronzer $4

12. Revlon Lip Butter, L’Oreal Colour Riche $5.99 / $8.99

13. Mario Badescu Face Spray $7

Genuine Music and Genuine Soul

Unless you’ve been living under a rock (assuming you’re not Patrick Star that is), you should know that Harry Styles is kicking ass in the music industry.

He’s making a mark, his own mark with music influenced from what he enjoys listening to and what he would listen to.

“Sign of The Times” has been out since a couple weeks ago and just recently on Saturday Night Live (SNL) he debuted another song called “Ever Since New York” which I have to say might be even better than the “Sign Of The Times” track.

I’m writing this simply to let you know that Styles is worth listening to whether with old or young ears, it’s a new vibe that isn’t electronic or auto-tuned to the hilt– it’s fresh, new, and genuine from the artist.

Music like this, is music that will never go out of style.

Also, I have to add that Jimmy Fallon and Styles were Amazing on SNL. Amazing with a capital “A.” Both are hilarious, both are talented AF, and both do something to me heart I can’t describe besides make it smile.



P.S. I watched Moana for the first time EVER last night (finally!), and that Disney movie is fantastic. Go watch it if you haven’t, just go. ❤

Also, The photo on the SNL set I believe was taken by Rosalind O’Connor (who’s amazing, at least from what I’ve seen over on SNL’S Facebook page. 🙂

She’s Me 

She’s silly. 
She’s an absolute goof. 

She stays up watching episode and episode of Doctor Who until she gives into sleep. 

She loves ramen noodles, but only the chicken kind and she eats them with a fork. 

She loves twinkly lights, they give a touch of magic. 

She feels a pounding in her chest when she remembers people from the past, but also people in the present and future. 

She wants to give her parents the world but has no means to do it just yet. 

She loves the sunrise, much more than the sunset. 

She always ties her straw wrapper into a knot to see if anyone’s thinking about her. 

She laughs at anything awkward, tears at anyone’s heartache, and smiles when she finds something funny. 

She feels everything happens for a reason. 

She watches funny YouTube videos to distract from the world when it gets a bit too much. 

She strives to be unique rather than ordinary because ordinary is too simple and bland. 

She’s a girl, in love with the world and everything, and everyone in it. 🌎

I Know, I’m Impossible

You want to know something?

I’ve felt pretty alone (I did have my family, so not entirely) since I was about 16.

Normally, I would say the last couple of years but I need to face reality.

I haven’t been living my life to the fullest.

I’m 20 years old now.

20 years old- the time for a new decade.

I want to make it fun to look back on, not sad.

I’m not a sad person, I know I’m not. I’ve had moments that were really bad where I’ve cried or felt broken for days, so at least I know I’m human.

However, everyone has obstacles.

For me one of the obstacles is loving who I am. I do, but in public I’m incredibly shy so I choose to pretend as if I’m invisible to avoid confrontation and embarrassing the hell out of myself.

But, the thing that builds character is going through these moments. The embarrassing, sad, random moments the universe throws at us.

At least I can say I’ve always tried to handle them in a mature way.

But, sometimes we need to take the route of maturity, not the high road necessarily, but the smart way.

I never want anyone to feel miserable, and I know that I can keep that promise along with one to myself, to just be myself and sometimes letting other people take care of me.

I know, I’m impossible.

But what 20 year olds life doesn’t feel impossible?

There have been some people that in some way, somehow, understand me. And to those people, thank you.



Know You’re Faults

It’s important to know you’re faults. Your own faults.

Not everything is everyone else’s fault.

Here are some of mine:

  1. I am shy- very painstakingly shy.
  2. I talk a lot or sometimes not at all when I get nervous.
  3. I’m an introvert, I like to be left alone- not be alone (as Audrey Hepburn says). That’s a little hard when it comes to being surrounded by a bunch of extroverts in my family with opinions. Then again, what’s a family without opinions on every thing you do?
  4. I want to travel- so so so so badly. But, I can’t save a penny for my life. I do spend on myself sometimes but I also love to buy things for other people and disregard the fact that it will jack up my bank account.
  5. I jumble words (this is something I found out more recently).
  6. I have weird feet. There, I said it: I don’t like my feet. That’s not so much of a fault as it is a criticism of my own appearance.
  7. I can get jealous.
  8. But I also really don’t care at the same time because I believe the sayings “everything happens for a reason” and “if it’s meant to be it will be.”


Good things:

  1. I’m compassionate. I’ve always gone above and beyond when it comes to empathy and if I so much as hear a sad snippet of someone’s story whether fiction or non-fiction I will most likely tear up. I think this is more a good thing than bad because it shows I’m human.
  2. I have moments where I’m fearless and throw all caution to the wind whether it comes to an interview, trying something new, or simply talking to someone I haven’t before. These are my favorite.
  3. I’m quiet. This means I listen to people.
  4. I want to travel- what kind of world would it be if I couldn’t read and travel through books at least?
  5. I’m a hard worker. I always have been (the main thing I focus on is details), I don’t know any other way. And if something were to not be perfect, I’ll either try a different way or accept it and move on.
  6. I’m Care free. I’m care-free but not to the point where I give zero damns about anything.
  7. I have a fast metabolism and like chocolate a lot so it sort of balances out lol.
  8. I own up to anything wrong or misleading I’ve done (or sometimes paranoidly think I do).

*IMPORTANT: If you make a mistake or hurt someones feelings, please own up to it as soon as possible or try to fix in some way. There’s a lot more respect, and less regrets if you do so.*

What are some of your faults / good qualities?

All for Galifornia

Ever since I randomly stumbled upon the new blush by Benefit on an Australian website,”Galifornia” has been on the top of my list- because I knew it was one that I’d fall head over heels for. Galifornia is the absolute reason I splurged a bit today…

I went to Ulta, and I went to a corner store afterwards (mainly to pick up some mucinex for my mom who has a cold; keep away from sneezers people it’s cold / allergy season).



And yes, I did take these photos outside. 🙂 The best lighting is there, and today was a nice day anyway’s so psh if you judge me.

Onto the things at Ulta:

1. Soap and Glory ‘Clean on Me” shower gel.

2. Soap and Glory Super cat liquid liner pen (which slightly terrifies me, but less than the super cat fat liquid liner unless I was going for a thick liner look which I rarely do) in “jet black”. Still a hard-core dollywink eyeliner fan. 😉

3. Benefit Cosmetics “Galifornia” Blush. Fun spin on California, which I’m hoping / wishing to go to in June for VidCon. I’ve read some reviews on it that mention the golden overlay disappearing after 5 swipes and while that’s most likely true, I still felt the need to buy it. It looks like summer, it smells like summer, it simply reminds me of summer. Plus, Coralista my all time favorite blush ever to exist which always comes from Benefit reminds me a bit of this by glancing at it. Not entirely sure if it will resemble it all but either way I have a gut feeling I’m going to love it. ^_^

Onto the things at the corner store:

  1. Herbal Essences Body Envy shampoo
  2. Herbal Essences Body Envy Conditioner
  3. Revlon Eyelash Curler (my old one was soooo overused that I threw it out a month ago and haven’t used one since)
  4. Curad Bandaids just because I’ve always wanted to try these and what better a time to buy some when someone needs one and there are none in the house.

That is the mini look into what I bought today!

Hope you enjoyed reading, do you know of anything I should keep my eye out for make-up wise, hair wise, book wise, or all sorts of wise?


Nat 💖



Disney Cartoons

​Anyone else remember this show?

Well, what about “Kim possible”? 

“The Proud Family”? 

“American Dragon: Jake Long”?

“Fish hooks”?

“The Replacements”? 

“Brandy and Mr. Whiskers” (such a fav as a kid)?

And, the obvious love, “Phineas and Ferb”? Of course, this is one of the more recent cartoon series that ended. 

I love these shows. I’m sure I’m not the only one, and yes, quite a few of them had a short life-span but they are definite staples when I think back to my childhood. 

I could of course go into Catrtoon Network’s but then we would be here forever, haha. 

I wanted to focus on Disney at the moment because I had completely forgotten about “The Buzz with Maggie” and “Brandy and Mr. Whiskers” which also had games on Disney Channels website that I played all the time on my dinosaur of a computer. 

I wonder what it is kids do these days? 

It’s not like as a child all I did was watch TV; I did play some Pacman, donkey kong, Wii, Nintendo DS and gameboy games, along with read for hours on end- sometimes an entire book in a day. 

I didn’t officially start writing until I was about 12 however. I think at 7 I had a little Journal where I wrote every once in a while (a lot of backwards N’s haha) but that doesn’t feel like it counts really. 

I also really enjoyed makeup. No, I didn’t wear makeup whatsoever until about 13 where I felt like FINALLY I could wear mascara, but clear mascara 🙄. And I remember using a brown liner and lining my lower lashline and that was literally IT. I only did that about twice a week, so you can imagine the confusion on some people’s faces when I strolled into class thinking I looked cute when in reality I looked like a panda. 

I remember sleepovers at Alex’s house and get togethers at Sydnee’s. Both I don’t talk to too much nowadays, because you know how the story goes, sometimes friends grow apart or turn into the devil– I mean to each their own. 

No, in all honesty my childhood was good and the people that surrounded me I grew up with until about the age of 15 where everything changed and I felt unbelievably alone. 

Now, during the moments I felt alone, I would write or read. That was kinda my thing. And in the background would be the shows you see above, or, CN cartoons / the classic Hannah Montana. 

I’ve always felt like I had to grow up early, yet in a sense I also felt like a kid, because I was a kid. 

Being a kid you’re supposed to be free of worry, free of judgement, and free of responsibilities.

I was always told not to have so much weight on my shoulders, yet I constantly did because I always felt in some way I could help with whatever situation was at hand. 

Now, as an adult. I realized things naturally change but what always remains the same are memories and feelings. 

People won’t remember what you said, what you did, but they will always remember how you made them feel. 

I’m greatful I always tried to make people feel better than down. I’m happy I stood up for the people I cared about, even if they didn’t stick up for me. It’s so much nicer to be nice than to be mean. 

In cartoons, there are a lot of moral points hidden besides the comedy. Animations especially reach audiences in a different way than shows with real- life people. Because in animations, the characters and environment can be created in any sort of way. 

It’s cool to pop into another world whether it’s for 10 minutes or a half hour. 

As a kid, building forts, creating stories out of play time with dolls, action figures, etc. is an amazing way to explore creativity. And to read a book, a physical book, nothing takes away that experience of creating an image in you’re own head based off of a story you read. 

I think this sort of ties into how dan-fiction was made but I’ll leave that for another day, haha. 

What kind of cartoons do you remember as a kid? I’d love to hear them! 🙂 


            Nat 💖



Harry Styles and Jimmy Fallon will be gracing SNL on APRIL 15.


YES, April 15.

I am ready, not sure about you all but for me my heart has never pounded so fast because I LOVE them both.

Of course, Jimmy has been on SNL since 1998, we all should know this by now. 🙂

Styles has only ever met Fallon once in December 2015, technically twice if you really want to consider Kristen Wiig dressing up as him for “an interview” with Fallon back in February 2014.

It’s going to be beautiful and “authentic” according to the CEO of Sony music.

If you’re unsure of what is meant by authentic-or laughing the description- my interpretation is simply for it being meant to sound and feel genuine.

Harry has always been seen as a genuine, goofy, lovable guy who isn’t overbearing or too mundane, he’s more chill. He sort of goes with the flow, and is into classics such as Stevie Wonder’s “Isn’t she Lovely” which some may remember from the X-factor.

Anyone who loves Stevie Wonder and Motown music in general is already sweet to me.

Because we’ve only seen the short clip with a bit of piano, it seems like the song will be a ballad and sound pure and not auto-tuned to the hilt or decked out with beats, which seems to be in quite a bit of music these days.

I for one, am super excited because this sounds like it will be right up my alley, right up my style, and has a yellow-brick road right to my flipping heart already being paved.

My question to you is: Are you excited for the song from Styles or more the SNL show with Styles and Fallon?



Harry Styles, Thank You

If you haven’t already heard, Harry Styles has released this video alluding to music being dropped on April 7. In fact, it’s not alluding at all- it is a straight fact.

April 7, that’s right, April 7.

Whether it’s a single (yes I’m aware the title of the video says ‘debut single’ but let me dream) or an album, it is going to be beautiful.

Is anyone else as stoked for this as me? 🙂





A Face Of Truth

Today I put on a face of determination. That includes a flick on the eye, a bold lip for a change, and a smirk. Everyone has different faces for different moments and different environments, but I have only ever had one face. Whether it be painted to the hilt, or bare; I have always had the same face and I will always have the same face. Walking outside, in a world I’m not most familiar with, I am recognized and in turn I am in shock. I was under the impression that wearing a lot of makeup drowns a person and creates a false image, whereas people still recognize me with or without makeup- even when I believe I am painting a false image. It’s because I don’t change my face to the point of it being someone else’s; is what I was told. Facial modes will change given time and given challenges, but I will forever have the same face. I’ve always admired different characters, different books, different stories, simply being different. But maybe I don’t have to be different, because I’m already an original. I will not place myself under my own telescope anymore. I will not listen to those who give me questioning looks, or pick at me from their throne of life’s lies, I am here to be one person and love myslef. I am determined to prove that I only paint a face of truth.