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Comments On Cheating

Cheating isn’t cool.

I don’t care if you’re a man or a woman, point blank is that it’s not another thing to add to why one gender is worse than another.

So many comments on all sorts of platforms, including real-life revolve around who cheats more, men, or women. If you are a man it’s likely you’ll say women, and if you are a woman it’s likely you’ll say men, ESPECIALLY if you yourself have experienced cheating. Of course this doesn’t apply to everyone on the planet, however I’d like to think at least some people see where I’m coming from.

To feel as if you can’t trust another person is one level, but to KNOW that someone has the audacity to cheat or hurt and then lie in your face is another.

You, yes YOU deserve better. You deserve to know better, and be loved by better.

I don’t want you to think slimey people are all that exist after one encounter with a partner that just hits the fan. I definitely don’t want that to happen if it was your first relationship.

But I especially don’t want it to become a battle consistently of whether or not men are the biggest cheaters, or women are.

Life is complicated as it is, should we really throw more gasoline on the fire?

Whether or not you were cheated on, know YOU are still fine as hell. There’s zero reason for you to doubt your self-worth, whether or not you were good enough, pretty enough, loving enough, NO.

And there is zero reason to single-out any gender, or place the blame for some of human-kinds misguided and idiotic people on a sole string of incidents that are relatable for almost every person in a comment section.

This is the cheaters problem. It is all the cheaters problem. You may not see the justice now, but know darn well it’s coming and karma will quite simply smack them in the face if you’re not quick enough to yourself.

Do me a favor though, please?

Recognize that it’s not a genders issue, it’s a cheater’s mind.

P.S. Recognize that you’re sad and it’s okay to be sad rather than playing it off… it’s okay to be sad for a while, however long you need to, but also remember that time waits for no one and once you understand they weren’t a waste of time but a blur of lessons, then you can begin to accept that the world will turn with or without that toxic person in you’re life.

And sometimes, too much of a good thing– or what you think is at least– really isn’t so good after all.

Love,

Nat

 

 

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It doesn’t get to you 

It doesn’t get to you until you step inside the doorway.
It doesn’t get to you until you hear ” I feel the baby kick.” 
And you’re immediate reaction is to place you’re hand on her stomach. 
It doesn’t get to you until the hour long drive back home that feels like a breeze,
But over time grows more and more distant.
It doesn’t get to you until empty spaces are filled with friends of family.
It doesn’t get to you until you look at the backyard and remember looking up instead of down
It doesn’t get to you until you drive down the road you learned to ride you’re bike on.
You’re first wheels. 
It doesn’t get to you until a tiny hand is placed in the palm of yours and you realize, this is the most precious thing. 
It doesn’t get to you until tears well up in you’re eyes and everything stops briefly.
While you’re hand is on her stomach,
And you can envision the life ahead. 
It doesn’t get to you until then. 
It doesn’t even phase you. 
*** Note: I literally just wrote this out of nowhere thinking of earlier today. Hope you don’t mind me sharing it. I hope you all have a good day too. *** 

Love,

           Nat 💖

Don’t Fall Too Soon

On the fence of intimidated and comfortable when around him, that is what I felt.

He is the type that says a million things without saying a word, encouraging without drowning your ears with the same old line.

Someone who provides all the happiness in the world, and little confusion.

It’s strange meeting someone like him, someone that understands and listens while you blabber on about your hometown. Then by some twist of fate he happens to know exactly what you’re talking about, because he resides there too.

Yet somehow you’ve never met, but feel as if you’ve known this person you’re whole life.

It’s strange how this works, and even stranger when you see he provides the same for multiple other girls, yet for whatever astounding reason, it still seems independent with you.

He’s not a bad guy, just a good guy with bad intention.

It’s fun to know a good guy, it’s nice to know they exist. But don’t fall too soon for them, for when the time comes it’ll be gone quick.

 

 

Wait 

If you’ve gone through a breakup, a troubling friendship, any situation where you have been wronged and there is no paranoia involved or thoughts of you being the bad guy because you know there was zero way. Fact… 

You need to be patient. 

That jerk is going to message you, call you, email you, what have you… whether it’s 2 days time, 2 months time, or 2 years time they are going to realize they messed up. 

They are going to ask for you back, or ask to be friends. Maybe they are lonely or whatever side project they had didn’t work out for them… whatever the case, don’t disrupt your own life to play along. 

That chapter of your life is over. 

It feels like absolute hell, I know. 

And your going to want to message them right away and go off because you don’t deserve to be treated in such a way, I know. 

But be patient. 

Don’t sit around waiting for them to attempt to redeem themselves— or you. What you need to do is block them or unfriend them at least for a little while to clear any uneccesary garbage from your life that they may throw at you out of the blue. 

It is hard to move on, but after a little while (different times for everyone) it gets easier. 

You don’t believe me now, but please trust me when I say wait. 

And follow your intuition. 

Love, 

            Nat💖

A first 

There was a wedding tonight for my gorgeous cousin Amelia, I have a few photos, they are on my camera and will be uploaded asap (the latest will be Monday)– in the meantime here are a few photos I took with my phone. Enjoy.❤️14468239_10211048277346581_206707809896738731_o.jpg14445066_10211048276346556_3967579962609990550_o.jpg14481902_10211048276186552_3185248194292710316_o.jpg14435278_10211048274746516_5091857961897216022_o.jpg14524620_10211048278386607_3973218655818879386_o.jpg14542411_10211048278026598_4506772862551191271_o.jpg14468200_10211048279866644_6941259316908200815_o.jpg14543673_10211048282146701_696247517199814154_o.jpg

OOTD and hair 

My outfit was a cropped red American appeal sweatshirt  coupled with an old pair of black jeans from Pacsun and white converse. Here’s a goofy side view.

Here are my shoes ❤️Here is my face. These are a few photos from the other day… Just so you know my hair is still a work in progress. 

This drastic blonde was not at all the intention, it was originally supposed to be a natural Balayage and along the lines there must’ve been a miscommunication between me and the hairstylist because this truly shocked me when I looked in the mirror. But after a couple months of growing it out, it has turned into a bit of an Ombré effect which I don’t mind.

It’s safe to say I won’t be doing much of anything at all to my hair for a while… 

I’m learning to love it though! 

Thanks for reading,

                                     Nat💖

Mini Sephora Haul 

So I went to Sephora for about 10 minutes and ended up with a few things I thought I would show you 🙂 

1. First aid beauty ultra repair cream (I use this as my face moisturizer, decided to buy another for backup)2. Benefit’s They’re real mascara 

This is the first ever high end mascara I bought and I decided I wanted to re-fall in love with it 

3. Too faced melted Berry liquid lipstick 

I’ve been wanting this forever and never picked it up, so today was the day I threw all caution to the wind. Safe to say, I love it. 

***This was written in early May or late April I believe. I just found it on my phone. Don’t look too deeply into this please… Just me getting my thoughts out at the time.*** 
You’ve got it
engrained in my mind That I’m just someone occupying your time 

If you really love me why did it take you a month until I said something to realize all your things were gone

Now I’m lying in my bed wondering where it all went wrong 
But I know the answer 

We weren’t there we weren’t there 

I was just a girl to replace her 

You’ll find one to replace me too

That’s just what you do, that’s just what people do 
Well it hurts my heart

And I’m falling apart 

Was I ever really falling together 

All it felt like was rainy weather 

You’d let me go knowing I didn’t feel the same 

Happy like I was when you picked me up for our date 

Then you question why I’m mad as I leave 

As soon as I grabbed the door you turned the key 

Wait for me 

Wait for me 

Don’t wait for me 

I can’t breathe 
Our relationship was founded on me not wanting to be alone 

For that I’m sorry 

But along the way as I grew fond 

You faded away 

That was my mistake 

No, that was our mistake. 
I found our photos in the back of the left drawer 

I didn’t hang them on the wall

Maybe that was a sign then after all

 the second I thought I should 

You decided you weren’t in this 

As I sit on the floor I contemplate if there’s even something to miss 
You and I both know there is. 

But I wonder who’s memories are better 

You say yours are 

But you couldn’t remember me after December 

The last 3 outta 4 months have been nothing but bad 

You said 

After telling me you love me 

After telling me you don’t want to leave 

After saying I could trust you 

After saying it was me you want to keep 

“Yet give it 12 days you’ll get over it 

If I decide I want to let you go”

But honey, this is a two way road. 
After I told you the last straw, was the last straw 

And I had to stick to my word where it didn’t belong 

I tried to get out you pulled my arm…

And god I wanted to love you 

So badly it physically hurts 

But I can’t let someone have so much power over me 

When bridges have been burnt you can’t force someone to love you 

Or yourself to love someone else 

That’s why my feelings always got placed on a shelf

The fear that it was the wrong person or that I was the Wrong person 
When i decide I want to love you, I get a reason not to
This time was worse 

This time it was my own name I cursed 

I can’t take back my word 

I can’t take back my word 

I said as you stared me down 

“Oh look, the building across the street is finished now”

I tried to lighten the mood 

It was too far gone 

And you know what else, we never found a song. 
Maybe it’s time we move along 

We both know it’s best to move along 

But you want to hold on 

And I want to hold on, at least until I can write a good song 

I love you, I really do 

But it’s something in the way you try to sooth 
For the first time I cry, for you to see just what’s happened to me. 

I’m not perfect, but neither are you.

Although you had no idea what to do. 

You put your hand on my knee, for a second it comforted me. 

I think I scared you though. 

You realized for me it wasn’t just words I spoke

The actions were there too

You know now that I love you 

But I can’t stay if I’m not promised you’ll do the same. 

Q & A 2016

I logged into WordPress wanting to post a blog, realizing I haven’t posted in a while and then stumbled on a notification saying I’ve been on this site for two years.

Wow, I mean wow.

I am absolute crap at posting (although in my defense I’ve been trying to upload a YouTube video and failing completely due to the editing system I was using) so in order to make that up and to have you all get to know me a bit better I decided to post a Q&A.

I hope it’s fun to read haha– it is sort of a long post, so bare with me. Or, disappear while you have the chance. 🙂

Hereee we go:

  1. Do you have any siblings?

Yes, i have one 19 year old sister. We are fraternal twins, she has blonde hair and blue eyes whist i have brown hair and brown eyes.

2. How old are you?

I’m 19 & my birthday is on the 13th of October.

3. What’s your height?

5ft 2″ i think…

4. What’s your top/dress size?

I’m a 2 or 4 depending on the store I go to.

5. Do you have any diet plans/tips?

I don’t. I should, but i don’t. I sort of just eat whatever i feel like but food that’s bad for me tends to be number one. I’ve been eating a lot more fruit recently and trying out new recipes which reminds me i want to share one soon– so we’ll have to see how this pans out.

6. Do you workout/How do you stay so slim?

This is going to sound terrible, but i don’t. I have a high metabolism which allows me to stay slim (this will most definitely change in a few years) although at one point I did do yoga in High School. I do really want to start exercising though, lately I have been walking too! So a point for me haha.

7. Do you have any pets?

I have a dog that’s a wheaten terrier named Riley who I also call Bubba sometimes. He is the best dog, I love him to pieces even though he’s 12 and STILL acts like a puppy. That’s what I love about him though.

8. What do you enjoy doing in your spare time?

This will sound boring..but nothing. I like organizing from time to time– that stresses me out/ reaxes me lol. Majority of the time though I’ll be watching YouTube videos and maybe reading.

9. Who inspires you?

So many people inspire me. I can’t pick one. Ii get inspired from everyone to be honest, anyone I meet could be an inspiration.

10. What do you feel is your greatest achievement?

Winning a debate against a snooty guy who thought I was nothing but a lollygagging girl. He certainly got a surprise. 🙂

11. What do you value most in life?

The people that value me. Not the fakers. They suck.

12. What do you do?

I am currently going into my Junior year of college (aka University). I worked at school this past year while studying and am working for the same company this summer. Not sure how much longer I will stay– but everyone’s been super sweet and I’ve loved it WAY more than my old job (my Co-workers were great, the customers however tended to be a little interesting).

13. What is your dream job?

My dream job…hmm..my dream job would be a Journalist. I have had a lot of ideas but Journalism is always the one I come back to. Plus, law school is incredibly expensive and maybe a paralegal one day, but first I’m chasing my Journalism dream. Writing, simply anything where I can write would be amazing.

14. Do you make good grades?

Yes. I try my best with everything I do– however, this year has brought on many new challenges such as working while studying and having a new relationship etc.– not that those are setbacks! But with everything being new to me, I had to constantly remind myself to breathe which was a pain in itself but I got my behind back in gear.

15. Do you want to get married later on in life?

Of course, as does every other girl. I have always been a super girly girl. I could talk about makeup forever simply because i find it fun. I also have day’s where I am the complete opposite though–not that either one is a bad thing, I’m just telling you the straight up truth. I would never marry the wrong person just for a wedding– I think it’s best to meet the one that is in it for you (everything about you) and the one you love whole-heartedley too. I hope I get married to someone who is genuinely my best friend and also love that will stick with me until the end. Of course, I don’t want to rush any of that. I personally feel the youngest I want to be married is 27 so I can figure my stuff out and live my life and so that whoever marries me can do the same.

16. Do you have any phobias?

Spiders. I am not a fan of them at all. I also don’t like the ocean. I don’t trust/ know what’s in it and I think its best to just stay far away.

17. Have you ever had a near death experience?

I haven’t really.

18. Do you get mad easily?

No, I don’t get mad easily. But if someone is being a complete idiot for a while, I will get frustrated and upset instead of mad.

19. Heels or flats?

I love wedges, I don’t feel as incapable of walking. haha

20. Favourite moisturiser?

Right now it’s Nivea, it used to be clinique’s dramatically different moisturizer

21. Where do you buy most of your clothes from?

Forever 21 / Pacsun / American  Eagle

22. Favorite Shop?

This is annoying but I don’t have a favorite shop.

23. Favorite makeup brand?

Mac (just for the lipstick and currently the MSFN), Too Faced, Urban Decay, and Benefit has never failed me. To each their own reasons as to why I love them.

24. Favorite drugstore makeup brand?

Wet N’ Wild by a longshot. The first makeup brand I ever bought from and right after was Burt’s Bee’s.

25. Favorite nail polish brand?

Essie and Sinful Colors. I always look at the names before I buy them too, I don’t know why, I just find it interesting and I love when I find one that fits the day? I have no real explanation tbh.

26. What was your first makeup item?

My first makeup item was a Wet N’ Wild eyeshadow trio in walking on Eggshells and a Wet N’ Wild lipgloss called “can’t be tamed” that I was obsessed with. It smelled minty and was sparkly.

27. What are you into the most, if you HAD to choose one..Jewelery, Makeup, Shoes, Clothes?

There’s a time when i would have said handbags hands down, but now I would definitely say makeup.

28. What is your favorite shoe store?

DSW.

29. At what age did you start wearing makeup?

Around 12/ 13 and it was every once in a while but all it was, was brown eyeliner. No mascara, no eyeshadow, just thick brown eyeliner on my waterline. Just try and picture that, and then completely erase that image from your mind ahaha

30. Do you wear falsies? If so which brand?

Nope. They freak me out.

I hope you enjoyed this little Q&A… it was completely random but fun. 🙂

Have a great night/ day, and feel free to answer any of these questions in the comments or in your own post!

Thanks for listening to me. ❤