Category Archives: Love

The thing everyone craves more of

A funny thing.

A dream we all wish we could dream.

Love.

It will crumble you, fumble you, make you believe your floating on skies, whether from one soul or a thousand eyes…

Keep you up in the dead of night electrified or terrified.

Love.

The thing everyone craves more of.

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Whisk Me Away – What Could’ve Been

Grab my hand and whisk me away under water.

Where no one can see us.

Where waves crash and the orange melts with the pink and the yellow in the sky… signaling its time to swim to shore.

We both stay afloat on our own.

I see his eyes lock with mine as I come up for air, almost sinking moments before.

He watches me.

I paddle around, make faces, splash water, and he just watches me.

Then BOOM.

He spreads his arms out, pulling me down to the bottom of the water; where the sand meets feet, where I meet my match.

Others find our little hideout in the middle of the sea, and he still notices me.

What am I to him?

A question I don’t bother to ask.

Screw the sea, this is our floor.

This is where it begins.

We dance our way to who is best when it comes to maneuvering around the waves.

Encouraging each other, behave.

This is the way it should be.

Drowned in each other rather than drowned in worries and fables.

He’s reached for the best of me, for so long, waited for the best of me, and I didn’t pull back this time. I’ve finally accepted that he’s all mine.

My Thoughts on Period Dramas

Why am I so in love with a world I’ve never known?

A world which was just introduced to me five years ago, has now become another feeling of home.

Though through fiction and film feels real nonetheless as the characters portray who I’ve come to love best; I still sit here and question why I cling to what I know best.

I connect with these characters in such a way that I have no clue of how to explain… the residing feeling of a world I might’ve known if I had simply taken a chance long ago.

Taken a chance on a story that could’ve also been my own, and not just read in a period drama from over 200 years old.

Maybe there’s still a chance, although it’s grown a bit old.

aghhhhh

 

Comments On Cheating

Cheating isn’t cool.

I don’t care if you’re a man or a woman, point blank is that it’s not another thing to add to why one gender is worse than another.

So many comments on all sorts of platforms, including real-life revolve around who cheats more, men, or women. If you are a man it’s likely you’ll say women, and if you are a woman it’s likely you’ll say men, ESPECIALLY if you yourself have experienced cheating. Of course this doesn’t apply to everyone on the planet, however I’d like to think at least some people see where I’m coming from.

To feel as if you can’t trust another person is one level, but to KNOW that someone has the audacity to cheat or hurt and then lie in your face is another.

You, yes YOU deserve better. You deserve to know better, and be loved by better.

I don’t want you to think slimey people are all that exist after one encounter with a partner that just hits the fan. I definitely don’t want that to happen if it was your first relationship.

But I especially don’t want it to become a battle consistently of whether or not men are the biggest cheaters, or women are.

Life is complicated as it is, should we really throw more gasoline on the fire?

Whether or not you were cheated on, know YOU are still fine as hell. There’s zero reason for you to doubt your self-worth, whether or not you were good enough, pretty enough, loving enough, NO.

And there is zero reason to single-out any gender, or place the blame for some of human-kinds misguided and idiotic people on a sole string of incidents that are relatable for almost every person in a comment section.

This is the cheaters problem. It is all the cheaters problem. You may not see the justice now, but know darn well it’s coming and karma will quite simply smack them in the face if you’re not quick enough to yourself.

Do me a favor though, please?

Recognize that it’s not a genders issue, it’s a cheater’s mind.

P.S. Recognize that you’re sad and it’s okay to be sad rather than playing it off… it’s okay to be sad for a while, however long you need to, but also remember that time waits for no one and once you understand they weren’t a waste of time but a blur of lessons, then you can begin to accept that the world will turn with or without that toxic person in you’re life.

And sometimes, too much of a good thing– or what you think is at least– really isn’t so good after all.

Love,

Nat

 

 

It doesn’t get to you 

It doesn’t get to you until you step inside the doorway.
It doesn’t get to you until you hear ” I feel the baby kick.” 
And you’re immediate reaction is to place you’re hand on her stomach. 
It doesn’t get to you until the hour long drive back home that feels like a breeze,
But over time grows more and more distant.
It doesn’t get to you until empty spaces are filled with friends of family.
It doesn’t get to you until you look at the backyard and remember looking up instead of down
It doesn’t get to you until you drive down the road you learned to ride you’re bike on.
You’re first wheels. 
It doesn’t get to you until a tiny hand is placed in the palm of yours and you realize, this is the most precious thing. 
It doesn’t get to you until tears well up in you’re eyes and everything stops briefly.
While you’re hand is on her stomach,
And you can envision the life ahead. 
It doesn’t get to you until then. 
It doesn’t even phase you. 
*** Note: I literally just wrote this out of nowhere thinking of earlier today. Hope you don’t mind me sharing it. I hope you all have a good day too. *** 

Love,

           Nat 💖

Don’t Fall Too Soon

On the fence of intimidated and comfortable when around him, that is what I felt.

He is the type that says a million things without saying a word, encouraging without drowning your ears with the same old line.

Someone who provides all the happiness in the world, and little confusion.

It’s strange meeting someone like him, someone that understands and listens while you blabber on about your hometown. Then by some twist of fate he happens to know exactly what you’re talking about, because he resides there too.

Yet somehow you’ve never met, but feel as if you’ve known this person you’re whole life.

It’s strange how this works, and even stranger when you see he provides the same for multiple other girls, yet for whatever astounding reason, it still seems independent with you.

He’s not a bad guy, just a good guy with bad intention.

It’s fun to know a good guy, it’s nice to know they exist. But don’t fall too soon for them, for when the time comes it’ll be gone quick.

 

 

Wait 

If you’ve gone through a breakup, a troubling friendship, any situation where you have been wronged and there is no paranoia involved or thoughts of you being the bad guy because you know there was zero way. Fact… 

You need to be patient. 

That jerk is going to message you, call you, email you, what have you… whether it’s 2 days time, 2 months time, or 2 years time they are going to realize they messed up. 

They are going to ask for you back, or ask to be friends. Maybe they are lonely or whatever side project they had didn’t work out for them… whatever the case, don’t disrupt your own life to play along. 

That chapter of your life is over. 

It feels like absolute hell, I know. 

And your going to want to message them right away and go off because you don’t deserve to be treated in such a way, I know. 

But be patient. 

Don’t sit around waiting for them to attempt to redeem themselves— or you. What you need to do is block them or unfriend them at least for a little while to clear any uneccesary garbage from your life that they may throw at you out of the blue. 

It is hard to move on, but after a little while (different times for everyone) it gets easier. 

You don’t believe me now, but please trust me when I say wait. 

And follow your intuition. 

Love, 

            Nat💖

A first 

There was a wedding tonight for my gorgeous cousin Amelia, I have a few photos, they are on my camera and will be uploaded asap (the latest will be Monday)– in the meantime here are a few photos I took with my phone. Enjoy.❤️14468239_10211048277346581_206707809896738731_o.jpg14445066_10211048276346556_3967579962609990550_o.jpg14481902_10211048276186552_3185248194292710316_o.jpg14435278_10211048274746516_5091857961897216022_o.jpg14524620_10211048278386607_3973218655818879386_o.jpg14542411_10211048278026598_4506772862551191271_o.jpg14468200_10211048279866644_6941259316908200815_o.jpg14543673_10211048282146701_696247517199814154_o.jpg

OOTD and hair 

My outfit was a cropped red American appeal sweatshirt  coupled with an old pair of black jeans from Pacsun and white converse. Here’s a goofy side view.

Here are my shoes ❤️Here is my face. These are a few photos from the other day… Just so you know my hair is still a work in progress. 

This drastic blonde was not at all the intention, it was originally supposed to be a natural Balayage and along the lines there must’ve been a miscommunication between me and the hairstylist because this truly shocked me when I looked in the mirror. But after a couple months of growing it out, it has turned into a bit of an Ombré effect which I don’t mind.

It’s safe to say I won’t be doing much of anything at all to my hair for a while… 

I’m learning to love it though! 

Thanks for reading,

                                     Nat💖

Mini Sephora Haul 

So I went to Sephora for about 10 minutes and ended up with a few things I thought I would show you 🙂 

1. First aid beauty ultra repair cream (I use this as my face moisturizer, decided to buy another for backup)2. Benefit’s They’re real mascara 

This is the first ever high end mascara I bought and I decided I wanted to re-fall in love with it 

3. Too faced melted Berry liquid lipstick 

I’ve been wanting this forever and never picked it up, so today was the day I threw all caution to the wind. Safe to say, I love it.