Category Archives: Thoughts

Groceries and Working Out

I’m trying to eat healthier. Last year around march I started working out and eating better and it made a world of a difference for me. Not only did it feel good because my body felt good, but it lowered my anxiety and just made everything else seem easier.

I’m not saying drop everything and eat fruit instead, but incorporating more fruits, veggies, and even yogurt can help your body feel and be it’s best.

I recently gained a lot of weight and was thinking about how last year I felt so powerful so I decided I was going to start eating better again at least, and slowly building up my workout again.

This is what I got from the grocery store today, for anyone that’s curious. Healthier is a better word than healthy I guess. 😉


Here you’ll find:




silk yogurt; blueberry and strawberry





silk almond milk


pork chops

cherry tomatoes

strawberry kiwi snapple X2

life cereal


Wish you the best

Hi… I’m having a rough night. Not the best WiFi and missing home. I hope your all happy, warm and comfortable right now in your beds getting ready to sleep. Maybe you have a book in your hand, maybe your watching tv or even getting organized for tomorrow. Either way, thank you for reading this and I wish you the best day tomorrow. 💖🥰

My final class

Today I started my final class of my final semester of college (university, for European people) and let me tell you PRAISE ALL THAT IS GOOD.

What’s good, I can’t wait to graduate.

I’m pumped.

But what really is on my mind is that this last semester I had a mental breakdown. A real one. Found myself nearly having a panic attack in the middle of a city I didn’t know because I my bumper just hit another cars bumper. Barely even a scratch, yet things just flipped way way upside down.

I’ve made mistakes, but this by far was my biggest one.

However, some might call it a mistake, I call it something that was meant to happen. It really pulled my family together too, they didn’t realize (well, my sister did the most) just how stressful things were getting to me.

And that’s when I realizded I was hiding it.

Fake “yeah I’m fine’s” in a high pitched tone to sound upbeat, smiling when inside I was screaming “don’t go” when they would leave to make the journey home.

I love my family, missed my family, and now more than ever I know how much they love me just as much as I love them.

Well, rah rah I could go on and on, but I need to touch on this whole bundle of feelings I experienced.

There was definite confusion, anger, hurt, sadness, and even some happiness… but what stood out to me was my anxiety.

It became a problem I couldn’t run away from anymore, and with this I finally found a solution to these nerves that I couldn’t control.

I urge anyone who feels anxious to simply talk to friends, or if like me, talk to a counselor if there are few close friends. It helps SO MUCH. You can event talk to me if you want, I’m all ears.


Nat 💖

Caught Up

Sometimes we get so caught up in our lives we forget to take time for ourselves. This could mean having a pamper night, movie night, or even both in order to clear your head and function at your best.


I enjoy painting my nails, listening to Taylor Swift, reading a book and pampering myself with face masks and lotions and such.

Everyone had their own way to recharge, this just happens to me mine. What’s yours?

💖 Nat

Just A Thought

**I want to be clear this is just random things I noticed, nothing against Taylor Swift or Jersey Green especially, and definitely not meant to be taken seriously**


Okay, so I have a theory.

It’s little, it’s mini, it’s the inner  T-Swift fan coming out of me maybe but it’s something I just want to mention.

The only song Lacey Green has on Genius is “I’m Alright” which surfaced as a possible unreleased song from Taylor Swift in 2013.

Originally there was talk of the person singing it being named Anna, then all of a sudden in the comments people mention Jersey Green.

People say it’s just a fan of Taylor Swift and Harry Styles’ relationship making a song about it, which is an adorable song.

But what if maybe it’s just another cover name for a song Taylor Swift actually wrote?

This is pointless since they aren’t even dating anymore… I know. But I’m mentioning it, deal with it.

Jersey Green has a channel named Jersey Green, one that was made before the video of her singing “I’m Alright” was posted on a new one called Stark. Why wasn’t it just posted on Jersey Green with her actual name? Something people tend to do when they want to start a career in music.

The first channel called Alyy  is where the song is posted in 2013, matching the 2016 version which would come out later. Does not match the video in the middle where Jersey Green is actually seen.

Now, maybe it’s because it’s a sort of fan-made song, so putting it onto the channel isn’t something Jersey Green would want to do – okay fine. I’ve been there myself with writing, so I get why she’d want to hide it.

Well then why would the songs sound different when playing the one sung by Jersey Green herself versus the one that’s just a lyric video. Certain notes are held longer, shorter… it sounds like the same voice, but there are a few differences. There’s also a text message heard at 2:04 in Jersey Green’s compared to nothing at 2:11 in what could be an unreleased song of Taylor Swift’s.

Maybe it was a studio version Jersey Green made that came out in 2016, but it’s just a little funny.

Maybe someone reached out and said “hey, we love this song you made since a lot of people love it, we want you to record it” to Jersey Green.

Or maybe it’s a song Taylor gave to Jersey Green, since that’s also a common thing in the music industry and she writes non-stop…

It’s just some little things.

Not to mention, the comments only date back to a year and there used to be way more than 35.

I think it’s just the inner Swiftie in me coming out.

And I love the song, it’s really great whether or not it’s written by Taylor Swift. ❤

Conquering Chloe: Chapter 7

“Let’s be friends”  Hayden says blunt as I’m halfway to my house.

“Friends?” I question, adding “we’re just neighbors aren’t we?”

“Exactly, which is why we need to be friends.”

“We don’t need to be anything,” sure of what I’m saying next, “you can be the guy who came to my house and brought over a cake once and just happened to stay for a movie, while I can go on being the girl who walks by your house from the bus stop. Unless I decide to go the other way.”

“No need for that” he say’s walking backwards from the place he made himself comfortable lately, at my side. I turn around, not really sure what I’m doing, and as I open my mouth to say something he’s turned around completely waving slightly as he walks off.


“Is there any way I could fit a dozen donuts in my mouth because I’d like to be the first person to do that” I say sitting next to Kelsey in the usual spot at the Cider Mill.

Kelsey’s quiet.

“What’s up Kels?”

“It’s just—you know Cassie that sat next to us at lunch a few weeks ago?”

“Yes…” I said trying to remember if it was the blonde or the redhead friend of hers, then remember the green-eyed friend that was the same night of the party she went to, while I stayed in and watched a movie with a neighbor.

“This guy I was talking to—she totally just took him from me!” she shouted with her hands stretched out like she was about to catch a pumpkin.

“What?” I say kicking myself back into our conversation.

“I mean, I had been talking to him, I liked him a lot you know… we even like the same bands and things and she just took him away, I don’t even know where they went and like—”

“Hey, it’s okay. I know you don’t like talking about this stuff but you are, so I’m here.”

“No, you don’t like talking about this stuff! God, I can’t even remember the last time you talked about anyone you liked!”

Well, this was shocking.

“Kelsey, there’s nothing to tell” genuinely said as I watched a leaf float to the ground.

“Kelsey, bleh bleh yes there is, I’ve seen you with that guy from school—it’s like a secret I can’t know about, that no one can know about” she says mimickingly.

“Okay, no, we barely know each other. He’s been to my house like twice in my life, both times super far in between each other, so trust me when I say there’s nothing to tell.”



“For now.”

“What is that supposed to mean?”

“It means what it means” she says sure of herself, nodding over to the line 10 yards away from us.

I see Max, look at Kelsey questioningly and turn around so my back faces him and I can drown in the cider I just bought.

“Maybe it can be his time now” she say’s leaning back, trying to make eye-contact I so clearly don’t want.

“He think’s I’m a freak, what does it matter?”

“Has he ever said that?”


“Then why do you say it?”

“Because I walked into his locker and nearly threw up after he wrote back on the note.”

“Oh, that’s nothing. Try being Cassie, known for being a guy-stealer” she says annoyed.

“There it is! That’s the topic we’re on!” I say excitedly as I feel an unwanted presence sit across from us.

Don’t Wait

The longer you wait, the longer the weight.

Silly cheesy saying? Check. Has been said before? Probably.

The REASON for it is, as long as your working towards whatever you want to do, whatever you need to do, whatever you have to do, you’ll figure it all out. If you sit and wait around for something to change, it won’t. It never does– it doesn’t work that way.

Putting pressure on yourself whether it’s a homework assignment, finding a job, calling someone back, the longer you wait the bigger the negative.

I mean how many times has your life felt like it was one bad thing after another after another? And when did it change? When you put in some effort to make one.

Most situations have a solution, and some situations take longer to figure out, to understand… but they CAN be solved. Sometimes it takes days, other times it could take years.

And yes, I’ve known the “Well, if I wait just a little longer it’ll be fine” and the “the more pressure I have before this is due, the better it will be” and while that may have felt true sometimes, it’s not! Don’t wait, start something now. You will feel enormously better, less of a hassle, and an easier time than if you wait last minute for EVERYTHING.

So, my advice to you is don’t wait for whatever it is your procrastinating now. Don’t, just don’t. Keep trying to solve that problem, that assignment, that little to-do you’ve kept forgetting for the past few weeks… just do it NOW.

I mean, at least start it now.

You can do it, whatever it is, you can do it and you will do it and it’ll be great and you’ll never have to visit a post like this ever again to find the motivation to do it in the first place. ❤



This is what I like

Hi, my name is Natalie and I like:


Early mornings

Fairy lights


Jane Austen


Taylor Swift



Alone time

Time with friends

Styling my hair

Making lists

Discovering new places

Chocolate twinkies

Cute mugs


My red suitcase


Picking out a Christmas tree


Leaves crunching on the ground

Movies (Especially ones with Audrey Hepburn or Julia Roberts)

Late night drives


The color orange

When everything goes right

When things go wrong but there is a right


My dog Riley



Surprising people

Cute stories

Writing notes in my phone at 3 AM

Waking up before the sun

Trivia games



Donkey Kong

The feeling you get when you do something right


Plaid scarfs

People that make me laugh

The ukulele, even though I’ve only played it a handful of times

Piano, even though I only played that when I was 10

Clean clothes




I should be doing that right now…


Thanks for reading!

Adventure Time Is Over

I loved this show. This is my favorite show.

It was a cartoon, and I’ve loved it ever since I can remember. Seriously, since I was about 12 this show has been on… I’m 21 going on 22 soon.

The pilot episode aired in 2007 – 2008 making the show about ten years old on it’s final day, today, September 3.

It had heart, was easy to watch, references literature, gaming (Zelda, card wars, etc.), shows such as “Cheers” and potentially even “Friends” noticed not only by me but other people too.

The stories which began as Finn, Jake, and friend adventures grew to include more in-depth stories with other characters like Marceline’s for instance with the episode “I remember you” and many more leading on to discover Simon’s past, Princess Bubblegum’s family, even BMO’s, Tree Trunks and the Lich’s life.

Character changes occurred, LSP’s growing understanding of life outside of her parents’, the Lich turning good instead of evil, Ice King going from bad, evil, cold old man to caring, kind, has a tough past but means well always, and many more.

This show has so many life lessons while also being funny to watch for adults, some jokes flew over my head when I was 13 etc. but as soon as I turned 19 or 20 catching them wasn’t hard. It’s like randomly discovering a new way to watch an old favorite show… you catch all the things you didn’t before.

I went from loving this show to being slightly embarrassed I still watched cartoons (okay completely) at 14 to being 18 watching them now and then to 21 feeling this bittersweet happiness it’s ending.

It’s like the end of an era as funny as that sounds.

It’s not just the end of the show for me personally, it feels like more as odd as that seems.

This is a show I hope is still on playing reruns one day when I have kids. That day won’t be for a long long time, buy hey, I’m serious. It’s really great, it’s always been great, and I’ll always remember it.

Not only was the cartoon itself fun to watch, but it had great stories through music, through relationships between characters, hinted at life lessons without throwing them in your face, this show seriously sounds like the biggest waste of time to anyone over 25 probably, but it’s not. It’s the best way to spend time actually.

I’m really happy I got to spend my time with a show I know will forever be recognized, even if it’s “just a cartoon” to some.


Artwork: chibiirose

The Great British Bake Off

I love this show a LOT. It’s the best thing when wanting to relax before bed and even learn a baking technique in the process. Always full of new faces, new people, new treats… but where the heck was it this last year?

It was known that there was a new season going; on Twitter the hashtag #GBBO led to see people discuss new hosts, a new judge… but what about the audience who doesn’t know what twitter even is and happened to love the show from the comfort of their US couch too?!

In case your now wondering, I just found these things out today and found them nowhere covered except for in a Guardian Article stating the show would be coming to Netflix August 31; Finally!!

Although there is an answer for when new seasons will be available on Netflix, it’s not as easy to notice the first three seasons no one really talks about.

These don’t exist to the US– at all. And for a GBBO junkie like myself, I would’ve liked to have known this before watching the series thinking I was watching the entire thing. Also, where could I watch the first three seasons I haven’t yet consecutively?! These are easy questions I would love answers to.

For anyone who doesn’t know, this is how it goes:

Season One: Non-existent to US. Original Air date: August 17, 2010. Began premiering on BBC Two. 

Season Two: Non Existent to US. Original Air date:Original Air date: August 14, 2011.

Season Three: Non Existent to US. Original Air date: August14, 2012.

Season Four: Original Air date: August 20, 2013.

Season Five: Original Air date: August 6, 2014. Began premiering on BBC One.

Season Six: Original Air date: August 5, 2015.

Season Seven: Original Air date: August 24, 2016.

Season Eight: Original Air date: August 29, 2017. Began premiering on Channel 4. This is when Mel, Sue, and Merry Berry left.

Season Nine: Original Air date: August 28, 2018.

Here is where I’m going to smother you with complications.

Seasons four through seven are considered series one through four on Netflix. Mind you, on GBBO’s website at the moment, series four and five need to be switched because Martha’s came before Ruby’s. At some point during the second series (referencing Netflix) it’s mentioned that Ruby is the new “youngest contestant” at 20 that The Great British Bakeoff had compared to the first series (again, referencing Netflix) with Martha, 17 at the time.

It went from airing on BBC Two, to BBC One, now on to Channel 4.

When it became channel 4 that is when Mel, Sue, and Merry Berry left. 😦

Is it still an amazing show?! Yes. Does it feel empty without Mel, Sue, and Merry Berry? Yep. Are people going to continue to watch it? Probably.


US Air date for season 9: August 31, 2018.

All seasons found on the GBBO website.


*Note: This post will be edited as new information is discovered*